Test results showed that the tumors were benign.
Praise the Lord!
Instead of cancer, I have Hashimoto's Disease. Which basically means that my thyroid is attacking itself and will eventually stop working. I meet with an Endocrinologist in 4 weeks and we'll go from there.
I love how the Lord works. Yesterday morning sitting in lecture at BSF I felt like every word she said was meant just for me. With tears streaming down my face, I furiously took notes. I was convinced this message was preparing me to hear that I had cancer that afternoon.
from my notes...
~God puts strength in our hearts so we can triumph over trials
~God permits trials to come
~never think that trouble is an accident
~he is in control of all trials
~first he shows us how weak we are in ourselves
~when we feel strong enough, we fail miserably
~don't do "nothing" - pray, search scriptures, seek godly counsel
~God does not deliver us immediately (or even in this lifetime), or in the same way for everyone
~God is glorified through our trials
~one reason for our trials is that you and I would be channels of blessings to others (my favorite)
~no matter what the trial, God's grace is sufficient for you
~suffering can keep us transforming and perfect our character
~God has to work in us before he can work through us
~as suffering increases, God's grace increases equally
~if we could store up God's grace for emergency use we would tend to trust ourselves
~sanctification - being transformed into the likeness of Christ
~we are Jars of Clay - the cracks in the jar are what makes the treasure inside (Christ's Salvation) shine
~pride will cover up our cracks and prevent Christ from being honored
~God's competence is our confidence
~Love that leads to reconciliation produces joy that knows no bounds
For the past year, and 6 months in particular I have been overwhelmed with depression and anger. My own inner turmoil. Not a pretty site around here. To the point of seeking medical help soon, but still feeling like everything was circumstantial. I prayed that God would give me a desire for his word. And he did! In a way I never thought possible. I have been reading like there is no tomorrow and am in the middle of Job already (1/3 of the way through the Bible!). He has been changing and molding me and I feel very different. Than even just four weeks ago.
Thank you Lord for trials that bring us closer to you.
There is no where else I'd rather be.
And thank you to everyone that was praying for me. It means more than you'll know.