And I'm already struggling. There is a jar of Nutella calling my name. I'm wishing now that I had opened that thing 3 months ago when I bought it. And then there is the honey I want to drizzle on my plain yogurt. Oh and don't forget the mini chocolate chips that I know are opened in the pantry.
In case you couldn't tell, I'm giving up sugar. I had been thinking about what I should give up for Lent that would help me remember the sacrifice that Jesus made for us and sugar came to mind. Because I crave it so often, I knew it would be a hardship. Then, I knew for sure I needed to do it when this book came in the mail 2 days ago.
I have PCOS, which wasn't discovered until we sought help after our two year struggle with infertility. The specialist was able to diagnose me on the spot and two months later we were pregnant with twins. Wow! What an answer to prayer that was.
Now that I've read this book though, I realize that there is so much more to it than just not being able to get pregnant. So when I asked my OB, four years ago, if there was anything else that could be done about PCOS or anything I needed to worry about, and he said "No", I'm finding now that wasn't true. At. All. For instance, I'm pretty sure I am or am becoming insulin resistant which will lead to diabetes (that solidified the no sugar idea). I'm also at a much greater risk for uterine cancer too. Did he tell me that? No! Grrr...
So, needless to say, I'll be seeing someone else (an endocrinologist) very soon to discuss all of the treatment options available to me. Thankfully this is something that can be treated.
Now I get to add that to the list of doctors I already needed to see...
I've been putting off an MRI check-up with a NeuroOpthamologist to see if I'm deveolping MS. I was supposed to do that every 6 months after having Optic Neuritis, and it's now been over 2 years (or more, I can't remember). Yeah, I'm a little nervous. Especially since I've been having some numbness in my toes, extreme fatigue and dizziness. And I'm majorly bummed that the test will cost $300 (insurance didn't cover it last time). But I guess it's a small price to pay in the grand scheme of things.
I've also been dealing with Sciatica for years. And it's come back particularly bad in the last 2 weeks. When it first started, 9 years ago, it was a result of raking our yard for 4 hours. An MRI showed nothing wrong and a year of seeing a chiropractor did nothing for it. I gave up. But now I have the name of a physical therapist (no referral needed, yay!) and a friend with the same complaints. He seems to think he can help her, so I am hopeful I'll find relief too.
I'm also hoping that one of these will be the answer to my headaches and dizziness too.
Hmmm...who should I call first? Right about now is when I wish I had a regular job. You know, the kind with sick days and time off for Dr. appointments. I guess a babysitter is another call I need to make in all of this too because I see lots of appointments in my future.
Excuse me while I go gnaw on some celery sticks and raw cauliflower and decide who to call first.
Feeling Overwhelmed (and in pain)
p.s. Why is it that us Mom's do such a good job of taking care of everyone else, but ourselves?