Thursday, February 18, 2010

It's only day one!

And I'm already struggling. There is a jar of Nutella calling my name. I'm wishing now that I had opened that thing 3 months ago when I bought it. And then there is the honey I want to drizzle on my plain yogurt. Oh and don't forget the mini chocolate chips that I know are opened in the pantry.

In case you couldn't tell, I'm giving up sugar. I had been thinking about what I should give up for Lent that would help me remember the sacrifice that Jesus made for us and sugar came to mind. Because I crave it so often, I knew it would be a hardship. Then, I knew for sure I needed to do it when this book came in the mail 2 days ago.

I have PCOS, which wasn't discovered until we sought help after our two year struggle with infertility. The specialist was able to diagnose me on the spot and two months later we were pregnant with twins. Wow! What an answer to prayer that was.

Now that I've read this book though, I realize that there is so much more to it than just not being able to get pregnant. So when I asked my OB, four years ago, if there was anything else that could be done about PCOS or anything I needed to worry about, and he said "No", I'm finding now that wasn't true. At. All. For instance, I'm pretty sure I am or am becoming insulin resistant which will lead to diabetes (that solidified the no sugar idea). I'm also at a much greater risk for uterine cancer too. Did he tell me that? No! Grrr...

So, needless to say, I'll be seeing someone else (an endocrinologist) very soon to discuss all of the treatment options available to me. Thankfully this is something that can be treated.

Now I get to add that to the list of doctors I already needed to see...

I've been putting off an MRI check-up with a NeuroOpthamologist to see if I'm deveolping MS. I was supposed to do that every 6 months after having Optic Neuritis, and it's now been over 2 years (or more, I can't remember). Yeah, I'm a little nervous. Especially since I've been having some numbness in my toes, extreme fatigue and dizziness. And I'm majorly bummed that the test will cost $300 (insurance didn't cover it last time). But I guess it's a small price to pay in the grand scheme of things.

I've also been dealing with Sciatica for years. And it's come back particularly bad in the last 2 weeks. When it first started, 9 years ago, it was a result of raking our yard for 4 hours. An MRI showed nothing wrong and a year of seeing a chiropractor did nothing for it. I gave up. But now I have the name of a physical therapist (no referral needed, yay!) and a friend with the same complaints. He seems to think he can help her, so I am hopeful I'll find relief too.

I'm also hoping that one of these will be the answer to my headaches and dizziness too.

Hmmm...who should I call first? Right about now is when I wish I had a regular job. You know, the kind with sick days and time off for Dr. appointments. I guess a babysitter is another call I need to make in all of this too because I see lots of appointments in my future.

Excuse me while I go gnaw on some celery sticks and raw cauliflower and decide who to call first.

Yours truly,
Feeling Overwhelmed (and in pain)

p.s. Why is it that us Mom's do such a good job of taking care of everyone else, but ourselves?


Spencer Family said...

Check out this book from the library and give it a quick skim and see if any of it applies to you...What Your Doctor May Not Tell You About Premenospause.

A friend recommended it to me and while my issues are different than yours, it seemed like a lot of issues women deal with now a days are addressed. I hope you feel better. It is no fun being sick and being a mom.

Angel said...

Thank you Alicia, I'm buying it tonight!

Colleen/And Baby Makes Five said...

Oh, Angel ... make those phone calls so you can (hopefully)get some relief -- and answers -- soon.

Keeping you in my prayers...

Lisa said...

Angel, adding you to my prayer list...hope you get some answers & relief soon!

Jenn said...

I can totally relate Angel! I have battled a kind of rare stomach condition for YEARS. It is SO time consuming to deal with health issues...there just isn't the time once you are a Mom to really stay on top of it. But please do are worth the time to be in the BEST health possible!!

Hang in there on the sugar. I gave up clothing shopping (Lord help me!) so I am feeling your pain :)


Jennifer said...

Angel your words are heartfelt and just know someone somewhere is praying for you!! Blessings. Jennifer

Stacy said...

I've given up candy and baked goods for Lent. Not completely no sugar, but it's a start for me. I have a book on sugar addicts and it totally sounded like me. I did this last year, too, and I lost 3-5 pounds.

Sorry to hear the chiropractor didn't help your sciatica. :( I have that, too, and my chiropractor has helped me out. Of course, it meant going to see him for 3 days a week for a few months. At least now I don't have the pain constantly along my right leg. If you want his name, let me know.

Get those other appts made, too!

Jessica said...

Get to dialing, dear friend! I know it's tough and you are so right we take care of everyone but ourselves, but you must carve out time to get checked out so you won't be in so much pain. Good luck on the sugar cleanse - you can do it!! ((Hugs and prayers))

Angel said...

Thanks everyone! And especially thank you for the prayers.

I haven't made the calls yet but I think I'll have worked up the nerve come Monday. I have a strange phobia about the phone. It can take me days to get up the nerve to call someone. I know, it sounds really stupid.

Stacy, I'll let you know if I need your Chiropractor's #. I went 3 days a week for months with my guy too, but no help. If PT doesn't work, maybe switching to yours will.

Kori said...

good luck hun!

April Grey said...

Angel, sorry to hear that you have not been feeling well, you will be in my prayers also.
I have also had to cut out sugar and wheat and eggs, dairy, oh just about everything because of stomach issues. BUT, I have come across some recipes that have let me eat my sweets and they use a sweetener called agave nectar. It's a low glycemic all natural sweetener that is slowly absorbed into the body so you you don't get the blood sugar spikes. Let me know if you want an awesome recipe for chocolate frosting. I'm still working on my cake recipe using this and it is all wheat and dairy free also.